Carpe Bucko is my mental health blog. It began as part of a blogging challenge; it continues as part of life challenge.
Shame is something I’ve begun to think about, since it is starting to seem possible that that’s the root of my mental health issues. But I know almost nothing about shame, so I am glad to have been pointed to Brené Brown. This is the beginning of me beginning to learn.
It feels weird to talk about taking life lessons from a fantasy anime, but here I go. But also from a science fiction audiobook and one of the most famous memes before memes were a thing.
Belief in God is not necessary in order to be thankful, even on Thanksiving. The Japanese provide a guide to mindful gratitude in one simple phrase: いただきます
The Buddha’s teachings about thoughts are pretty good, centered on “here and now”. Mental illness makes that tricky to apply, like trying to walk to the hospital with a busted leg. Or two.
Disabilities can be invisible. Just because a person does not have an apparent physical disability does not mean they are “normally” abled. Mental illness is a disability. Which means ableism is also an issue.
Last night, I finally wrote my family and told them about my depression. Today, I wrote a blog about that. Not the tightest writing ever, but hey. I wrote something. That’s a win.
I’ve never dealt well with adversity, and it seems that the more I learn about my mental health/illness, the worse it becomes – at times. Context is critical. Thankfully, I am finding a way to deal with it, although it’s not something that works at 70mph on the freeway.
It would be easy to walk, or drift, into Permanent Victimhood. But I’ve known those people, and I don’t want to be those people. I trying for a more positive & productive life.
I want to be healthy.
Weird stuff happens every day, but some days the weird takes on a meaningful appearance. I wonder what it’s all about.
I’m done with projects and big ideas and plans to turn myself into Oregon’s Premier Political Podcaster or any other such nonsense.